Plea to be Me

I give up!
my gift of words has escaped
my vocabulary has diminished.
and my communication skills have ceased to exist
and now frustration takes over my very being....
my purpose isnt to be mean.
it's just that i cant think past my anger in order to say what needs to be said
so i just use hateful words instead
and my heart is breaking because your heart is broken.
but i dont feel the need to be politically correct all day long.
sometimes to get your point across you have to sound wrong.
i cant always be perfect although i try....
and I'm in a constant battle to keep the masses happy
but i don't know why.
I guess the pain in the eyes of those who work hard and have nothing angers my core
and those who do nothing get all they want disgusts me even more.
my choice of words may shock u but they are my choice of words
and if speaking my mind hurts your feeling then your feelings will be hurt.
*** i'm not done but i have writers block now**

Mr. professional

To me
You mean the world and more
Can’t help but to adore
Your smile, your kiss
The softness of your lips
The glow of your brown eyes in the dark
To me
You are happiness
The reason I laugh
The reason I smile
You seem to make the day to day worth while
To me
You are perfect
The reason I rise with the sun rise
But then…
Mr. Professional takes over.
No time for me
No time for love
Only time for work
Time to go
Time to eat
Time to sleep
No time for love
Mr. Professional has one love
Her different values and different faces is the only thing that replaces that hollow feeling that my everything feels once Mr professional takes over.
Mr. Professional will give me an hour of his weekend minuets but his anytime aint mine cause he has no time for love. This aint no metro PCS love I’m getting
No.. I can’t even cingularly rollover and have time with my man no mobile to mobile because I’m stationary chilling in my phone booth of loneliness hoping he will call. And when the phone rings a sprint over only to be disappointed when I see the caller ID
And Mr. Professional doesn’t like complaints.. oh no.. he cant hear the.. maybe’ if and but or ain’t it’s no
Mr. professional is punctual and reasonable when it come to his first love of dough
But to my beau I am but a second thought a glimpse at nothingness.. just a post to drop off the lonely feelings he feels between his knees
And as far as I Love You’s please… Mr’ professional knows not of such things it’s a 3 syllable waste of time and he hasn’t got time to waste.
Hundreds of hours a week.
He’s trying to provide for his Queen… you know the one he never sees… the one who battles with the need to creep to fulfill her needs.
My insides scream to be pleased and my heart knows the relationship is not how a relationship should be.
All I ever feels is lonely… ..
Is this the destiny I’m daring to have
The action of change is far more important than print on paper
Will you really make time for me.
You’ve run through every excuse and now you’re out.
Open your eyes and look at me..
You’ve blinded you’re self to reality.
you’re living a DR. Jackal Mr. Hyde existence.
And the distance
it’s killing me.
Time for love should be priority
It shouldn’t be up on a shelf collecting dust
Honey, this is a must.
I must know if ur in love
Am I ur love
Or is it money
I’m tired of Mr. professional…
Tired of his love for dough messing with my something beautiful.
Mr. professional has got to go
So I can get back to you.. and how you are to me.
Cause at some point you were my world and so much more. You were everything I adored til you let mr professional in the door.
And I tried to ignore the acts of grandeur.
But I can no longer hide or disguise the way I’m feeling inside.
Although ultimatums are a bust this one is a must so here is what u can trust. It’s either mr. professional or me. I love you choose wisely.

I'm over it.. aren't u?
you know that junk you brought in from high school.
talking behind my back about me
and what really gets me is the hypocrisy.
to laugh in my face but talk behind my back
you pretended like we were friends and when I'm not looking u set up this character attack.
you slander my name like this is a game.
obviously back biting is your claim to fame.
it's fine if u hate me.. envy is sad
I'll pray for God to forgive you and so you know i'm not mad.
it's kool that we're not friends my life won't change
I'm turning the page.
i have gotten over it.. it's time you do the same

Untiled incomple madness

It takes more than muscles to be a man. You don't have to be spine less to receive a helping hand. A man knows when to step up and knows when to back down. Knows its okay to cry even when people are around. A man knows how to treat his women with love and respect and doesn't dog her out every chance he gets. A real man knows how to really love. And always does the right thing when push comes to shove. A real man is driven and has purpose. He is responsible and caring even below the surface. A real man is in tune with real life and not just a fantasy of how it should be. A real man knows how to take you to ecstasy with a touch of intimacy. Your pleasure is his pleasure and he knows all the ways u can explode, erupt, and implode together.a real man defends his queen from haters wannabes and feens But sadly real men are few and far between you may think you have one in your life but its about as real as a love scene on a movie screen. So this is my reality check. I'm checkin myself into the reality that I might as well become a nun because I'm fed up with dealin with wannabe thugs and bums. Disrespectful homeboys and their toy guns. ****** to be continued wen I'm in tha mood to write again

A Crazy little Thing Called Love

lately been feeling kinda psycho

ask me why i'll say i dunno

i'm just riding through and hoping for the best

but this feeling is harder to shake than the rest

all kinds of emotions get stirred up at once

acting kinda like it that time of the month

mood swings left and right

especially in the moonlight

happy,sad, even steaming mad

but once youre around i'm just glad

i was feeling kinda silly

and missing you severly

i just want to let you know wat u've done

seems to be that for me ur the only one

you'll make that cash flow and i'll remain unforgettable

BK meets Mr. MIATL 4 sure

got me seriously undone

with this crazy little thing called love

User

What a User!

Person abuser

love confuser

affection loser

your words a like a missle cruiser

disaster maker

faith shaker

trust breaker

hope taker

your lifes philosophy so divine what yours is mine and wat's mine is mine

you have no spine

u tried to get in in my mind

and make me unwind

like a spinning top on crack.

but baby ur game is whack

i wont fall into ur trap

cant be misguided by your lies

i see the truth behind the disguise

it took a second to realize

simply cause love is blind

but i see the game that users play

and they always take it the loser's way

sore to the core

u can use me kno more

so you can take, break, shake ,make some one else your fool

because i refuse to cruise, lose feel confused or be abused by a user.

Apparently I love you

my heart and soul are on fire, i'm filling with desire to be next to you.

i can't sleep cant eat without you by my side. it seems without out u in my life i don't know what what to do.

finding the words to explain aren't easy apparently love can make everyone mad cheesy.

and to try to express my feelings in these rhymes seems kind of hopeless

cause compared to how i really feel these lyrics are nonsence, just plain ridiculous

but even if i can't accomplish mission at least u have a clue of my vision of you

and maybe i'm a fool to love u the way i do but i've thrown caution to the wind and decided to be a fool for you.

and cant no other chick step to you the way i do i'm coming real and correct with nothing but respect and while i'm on that subject i elect to expect the same from you.

you are my whole top 8 my dream date my best friend my perfect 10. you got everything i'm looking for and so much more. ur a man's man with gentle hands and a kind heart and even though we are apart i'm heading back to the start so we can be on the same page the main stage together with our hearts and souls on fire while i'm filling with desire to be with you.

Love Road

on love road i travel alone.
always following the same path
i give you all of me
take my time and let you speak to me.
i let you speak to my heart and soul entirely
and let you fill the empty parts of me.
and afterward you walk out the door and leave me
is there something better for me
or am i doomed to be with u
to abide by your rules
i cant address this curse
the sting of the truth would be the worst
i slowly climb to the climax on this roller coaster ride
i'm to scared to cry to show my real side.
i'm afraid of fear
of people getting to near
but this is how every life appears
it has it's ups and downs, good and bad, angry happy sad.
but then again it's never positive with you
i dont feel human with you
i feel like a toy you like to use.
i feel broken up inside
with all these feelings that i hide.
i'm not suprised
that i'm confused and torn
of all these things i was forewarned.
can i really move on.
even though our souls mate when our bodies meet
and for me that treat is just so sublime.
to think of me as yours and you as mine
and life without the barrier of time
just us in love in lust
am i in love with u or in lust with love or in love with lust.
i go in a million directions to find myself on the same road.
broken and alone. paranoid.
everyones a stranger all possible danger.
but i still trust and i still fall....
on loves road i travel alone always following the same path in lust, love and heartache..... to the inevitable street of heartbreak.

Dedicated To You

My heart aches in pain when I’m not with you.
I could never tell you why I feel the way I do.
it’s like why the rivers run into the sea
or why that song says I’ll never get over you getting over me.
But babe this is kinda crazy you know I’m young enough to be your baby
Who’d of known that I would fall for you like snow on a cold winters night,
or like the rain after the sun shone bright
for 4 long days free to say express the ways it feels.
When I’m alone I think of the next time I’ll be with you, and I can smile.
For a moment I’m not in a cage barricaded with locks on it’s doors.
Where people throw words and the sound is sharp as a sword,
and they have no regard for your heart.
They don’t give it a second thought.
But with you the man of my dreams I’m free to be me.
The love we share holds no complexity.
I talk to you the way you talk to me, and the voices filled with emotion and hope.
I have no doubt that it’ll work out.
Even if marriage isn’t our end our love is so strong we will always be friends.
I hope you remember me when you’re alone too;
so I know the next time I see you will be soon.
I miss your touch and you’re kiss,
but most of all I miss the feeling I feel when you’re near safety and love and no fear
the emotions run wild with you my dear.
You were made for me as I’m made for you really and truly I hope you know this too,
but with this poem dedicated to you I mostly wanna thank you for every thing you did and everything you’ll do.

Te Quiero

For the first time I feel a love a joy
That I’ve never felt before

My heart is for nobody but you
Now look were we are
We’re in love
This is real my love

You are my world
My joy, my life, my dreams,
My heart, my everything my love

Por la primera vez me siento un amor
Una felicidad real

Mi corazon es por nadie otro
ahora mira nuestro amor
Esto es un amor autentico

Tu eres mi mundo mi felicidad
Mi vida mi soÑar mi corazon
Mi Todo
Te Quiero

The Real Thing

There was a time I still remember
From when I was younger
When the real thing and I stood face to face
Eye to eye
The real thing had slick brown hair
Its eyes were hazel
And its heart was pure
I talked to the real thing of loss love and life
The real thing was smart and sweet and awfully handsome
The real thing is what I call true love
The real thing is a guy with a heart of gold and a soul of truth
The real thing knows I love him and he loves me
The real thing is everything every man should be

True Love

I never thought that we would ever be the way we are

I always dreamed that we could have the love I know

Someday I’ll see you again with a smile on my face

I’ll make it known to the world that I’m the best thing you’ve ever had

So I hope that today as I pray for you

You figure out what love is

And that it’s meant to be true

Today

I greet you today proud as can be
I'm proud cause I decided to be kind to be me
I never thought it'd get me this far
But that was my mistake look at where things are.

I sit here before you smiling bright
I never thought that a kind word could
Make all the difference could change a life
I stand here before you with a marvelous grace
That the things I say can fill a void space
Maybe if a loving word can make you smile
Then many Kind words can make you smile for a while

I leave you today knowing I took the right way
That being kind made your day
and if I did it the right way
You'll pass my loving word along
and make someone else's days

Not Now

I ask for your help but you say not now I’m busy
and I wonder will you ever have time for me
I try to understand that you have to support us
but you can make time or others
you say you love me but you don't show it
bad things happen but you don't know it
so I give up trying to please you
it's all about me now
and when you ask for help
all I’ll say is not now
and be the way you taught me to

False Love

All theses years I never seen this false love in front of me
It did what you’d expect
Pats on the back
Hugs
Kisses
But behind it lurked a temper
This temper raised all kinds of heck
It finally took over and that’s all the was left
False love’s true self showed
A monster never more to be controlled
To see all false love lost
His home
His families respect and affection
It was gone for good
He was left alone in the cold no one to turn to
His one chance at joy was gone
But there is still hope
Maybe false love will soon be true

Joy

I’m thinking about you day and night
You're a great man cause you treat me right
Your loving words your gracious smile
Makes everyday more worth while
I know you’ll never do me wrong
Cause your loving can cause no harm
When I’m with you I feel no pain
It’s a constant struggle when you’re away
But now I know you’re here to stay
Your hugs your kiss the warmth I feel
It’s pretty obvious my eyes reveal
I love you with my whole heart
And I hope our love won’t fall apart

Space

I gave you my heart I gave you my all
And in to love I did fall
I care for you still to this day
After 315 you pushed me away
So after I beg and plead I see the truth
I see all we need in this place
All we need is a little space

Tears

The day seemed extra long
The feelings of pain and fear were strong
The horror of worry hung over head
The people in tears cause their family was dead

That morning they watched them fly away
Thinking they’d see them another day
After they heard the terrible new their lives were changed
Never again to be the same

September 11, 2001
The day that terror had hit home
The day that innocent blood was shed
The people in tears cause their family was dead

A New Life

He turned around with tears in his eyes
He looked at the place that had just saved his life
He walked in sick dirty and stained
He walked out good as new never to be the same
He knew things were different the moment he got up
He saw with new eyes and he made an effort
The water had cleansed him like none had before
He now walked with Jesus forever more

3 Angels

I know why I cried the day three angels died
The tears of pain knowing I’d never see them again
My heart has now a hole
I feel empty and cold
Peace is hard to come by knowing what could be
But god wanted his angels back he wanted all three
Life must be lived by the living even with the pain
Even if we’re thinking we’ll never smile again
I know why I cried the day three angels died
But the pain will subside and the tears won’t remain
The smiles will return when we see them again up in heaven
(In loving memory of Darren, Justin, and Kinnith)

A Heroine

She woke up that morning and climbed into her plane ready to do her thing
Packed and set she was very free
And now it was their turn to be delivered from the hands so mean
She reached her destination so far from home
She knew it was too late to back down look how far she’s come
She joined her friends she knew what she had to do
She was to battle this evil monster Sadaam and his crew
The most extreme of heroes this woman was
Powerful and strong simply because
The choice she had made to risk her life
No superpowers just faith and her knife
A true hero this woman is
And she did this so freedom would remain for her kids

Sorrow

After the days and nights I spent in tears
Crying over everything from hope and life to death and fear
Sorrow truly filled the air
And all that time you were not there
I called and cried you said good bye
The pain I felt would not subside
You said you’d hold me close when I’m in pain
But when I came
You pushed away
I think the best way to get rid of sorrow is to find the cause,
Deal day by day forgetting tomorrow
This is why this thing is over
Cause we let sorrow take over
Soon enough we will move on
I won’t look back I will be strong

Trustless

My life is not the way it should be
Everyone is trying to sabotage me
I never did a word of what that monster said
And my father believed her my faith in him is dead
I don’t know why she had to lie to break my spirit and make me cry
Everything changes in the blink of an eye
That’s why I trust no one don’t wonder why

Only One

I’ve been hurt by men in all shapes and sizes
From fathers to brothers and what I realize is
If you can’t trust what you hold so dear
Move on in life and don’t shed a tear
Confide in the one man who’ll always listen
It will be off your chest and you won’t miss it
Jesus is the one who I’ll always trust
When your life and love is on the line the situation won’t be a bust
He comforts me in my pain
And he’s my umbrella in the rain
He protects me and guides me and keeps me safe
With him is my haven my holy place
I don’t need any other man
He’s dependable and he’ll always stand holy and righteous
I love this man

The Difference

what's the difference between you and me?
The difference in the way we see.

The things you see show no change, no remorse and no complaints,

The way I see is real and true that life doesn’t revolve around you.

You lie and claim to love someone other when you and I know the only woman u love is your mother.

You tell me so many lies it took me a broken heart to realize that a conceded man like you deserves no woman no even a shrew.

You take me for granted and then try to break me down.

Homeboy you don’t deserve me so I’m not sticking around.

I’m walking away from the pain you caused me and the lies you told.

No truth to behold you turned around and said its cause I cheated.

The only reason cheated is cause you are conceded.

Now to all men who speak the same lies love is no game cause it affects lives.

When you love yourself more then everyone else in the end you will be alone with out a woman in your home.

With no girl to hold you down.

Your life will be hard no support to be found.

The difference between you and him is you can learn from his mistakes and get a second chance.

Don’t be hungry lonely and pale.

Treating your lady right is the moral of my tale